Looking for inspiration when you’re feeling stuck is so daunting. It’s been over two months since I arrived back in Atlanta, and in many ways I feel completely and utterly uninspired. I miss waking up and wondering what adventure am I going on today. I miss waking up in a foreign place with no sense of responsibility. In many ways, I’ve abandoned that wanderer. I haven’t been writing or exploring, and I crave the excitement of being abroad. For three months I was in a fantasy world of constant movement and I felt incredibly free, but what I didn’t publish on my blog was that I maxed out my credit card, I had no post-grad job waiting for me, and I had no real idea of what I wanted to do with my life now that I was done with college. Of course traveling felt liberating – I was escaping the confines of society.
Coming back to Atlanta was a slap of reality. I had to find a job to pay off my debt, a place to live, and figure out what the hell was coming next. Admittedly, I’ve hit a few bumps along the way, you see trying to find balance for me has always been challenging because I’m a big fan of excess. Although I’ve found a temporary job and a temporary home, I don’t know what’s coming next.
When I was younger, I dreamt of becoming an actress, but college snatched that dream away from me. I felt a pull to come back to it, so I found an amazing six-month long program in Atlanta and began to delve deep into the process. However, there are days where I wonder if I can see myself truly following that passion. Sometimes my wanderlust is so overwhelming I find myself daydreaming at work about packing up all of my things and traveling through South America for three months. Or perhaps maybe it’s time I find one of those big adult jobs everyone else seems to crushing. I’m not sure about anything right now, but my guru’s words ring in my head “when you don’t know what to do, don’t do anything.”
My only decision for now is to continue delving into myself, my craft and this beautiful city of Atlanta. I invite you to follow me as I try to find inspiration in my surroundings by exploring new restaurants, parks, museums and more. I hope to do a series of posts on life in Atlanta and also recount some experiences from my previous travels. I thank you for always reading along and following me on this journey, and I look forward to sharing my upcoming adventures.
With light and love,